Another Fresh Start

Hi!

My blog isn’t dead it’s just been hibernating. Or maybe sulking.

I’m not sure which.

As usual my plate has been far too full. Not my actual plate because that hasn’t been full enough.

I’m still trying to lose weight and I’m having mixed results. You can catch up with my fitness farce over at Blog To Fit.



Picture: tacit requiem

But here’s is the main news of the day:

I’ve sold out. I’ve caved in.

I’ve decided to return to work as a Police Officer.

AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I’m nine months into a two year career break and it looks like I’ll be returning after just a year.

This isn’t what I wanted. It doesn’t make me feel good.

It makes me feel crap for a whole host of reasons.

I truly believed I’d left the police behind to start a new life earning a living from the the wonderfully lucrative interwebs.

It hasn’t happened, but in all honesty I haven’t given it long enough, nor have I tried hard enough.

I know I’m being a little harsh on myself but it’s all in good humour. Trust me, I’m not exactly sitting here flaying myself with a birch twig.

There are things happening for me on the Internet, it’s not like I’ve sat idle, but recent events have forced to take another look at what I’m doing and how I’m doing it.

Blog To Fit is a great project which seemingly came from nowhere. It has a great deal of promise.

To be honest, if the only thing it does is for me is gets me a six pack stomach off which bikini clad models can eat their dinner, I’ll consider it to be a complete success. On reflection, they don’t even need to wear bikinis !

I’ve also been collaborating with a couple of others on a project along the lines of the dreaded passive income theme. But like everything else there’s no guarantee it will bear fruit.

Teach My Children Well hasn’t quite panned out the way I thought it might, but it turns out it’s helped me enormously. In many respects it’s been much better than I could have hoped.

I’ve met so many great people along the way. Many of whom come back time after time to tune into my ramblings, despite the fact that I rarely (if ever) get to visit them. That’s just amazing!

One of the truths I’ve had to face up to is I just don’t have the time to be fully absorbed online engaging in banter and chit chat – as much as that’s what first drew me to this medium – and as much as I love it – it’s impeded what I’m trying to do to change my life for the better.

I’m going to change the way I do business.

I’ll continue to post to Teach My Children Well, but many of my posts will be much shorter and resemble more frequent Twitteresque nuggets of blah. (You see, I’m quite the wordsmith! )

Also, I’m going to play in the comments only when I can. If I can’t, I can’t, and I’ll have to accept that.

I’ve got three months left before I’m destined to return to work and I still have every belief that I can turn my situation around.

OK, so I’m not a writer, but I can write. I know that seems like a contradiction but it’s an accurate reflection of my situation.

Some people can open their mind and let their thoughts drop onto the page in almost the same form they are later published. I can’t do that.

The process for me can be quite painful and unless it’s stream of consciousness stuff like this, it can take me hours to write a thousand usable words.

These are hours I don’t have. Or at least hours that would be better devoted to being the dad and husband I want to be.

It’s been suggested to me a number of times by a number of people, but most frequently by Tara Cain and Mark McClure (thank you both) that I should consider positioning my blog as a potential a book deal or magazine column.

I may be deluded in believing it’s a possibility and maybe I’ve put the mockers on it by openly mentioning it.

But honestly, what the hell do I have to lose by trying?

So basically I’m starting again.

I’m going to continue to share with you my imperfections, failures and successes.

It’ll be mainly sarcastic, tongue in cheek, wry and ironic. I’ll take the piss out of myself and cheekily suggest that the other people in my life are far from perfect – but never with the intention of running them down. The people in my life are fantastic. And that includes you.

Comment if you want, don’t if you don’t. I’m not keeping score and I’ll hold no grudges.

Thank you all for sticking with me this far. I feel privileged.

Have a great weekend!!

Dave.